I wouldn’t say I haven’t been active for the past few months. On the
contrary, last year has swung me up and down like alternating current. It was
the end of May 2019 when I decided to forgive myself and relieve myself of the
pressure of publishing a blog. I was stuck in a vicious cycle. The stress of
regularly publishing a blog was hampering my ability to write, which in turn
was adding to the stress of regularly publishing. It wasn’t like I stopped
writing. But the frequency significantly reduced. The stress went to a point
where I couldn’t publish my ready to publish articles.
I finally decided to relieve myself of this pressure at the end of May
and within the next few days, I got an opportunity to write a blog for the
Mental Health Education department of NIMHANS. It only added to the stress but
since it was a time-bound activity, I did it.
I was able to find some peace as the time passed by because I realized
that though I am not necessarily writing blogs to publish, I was constantly
growing as a writer by exploring different styles of writing both at my
workplace and on my own. Once I realized it, I started consciously working on
it. While I was still struggling to write blogs, I continued to write because
all the websites talking about writer’s block advised that I should write no
matter what. Only a few thoughts/observations converted into ideas to write.
Not all those ideas were jotted down. Most of those writings were left
incomplete. But I powered through. I am still doing it.
I definitely can’t pick up where I left off because I am not at the same
place anymore. I have grown during this period as a writer and a person. My
writing being the best testament to that.
This post is a shout out to all the content creators who deal with this
stress in different capacities at different times on a regular basis and still
show up, power through, and create amazing content!
